News "leaked"

Well, so much for waiting til Wayne's sister's b-day was over to share the news of what we are having. Apparently Wayne "blabbed" it to his sister the day I told him, then she told her fiance, who said something during her b-day dinner. Oh well...so much for a "surprise" moment...lol.

So for everyone who's been waiting to hear....it's a BOY!!!! We haven't chosen the name yet. We have one picked out but not positive on it. I'm hoping to be able to keep the name a secret til the end this time but we'll see.

I'm feeling pretty good.....just a little sore...baby's pushing a lot(not kicking yet but pushing...trying to stretch my stomach more...lol).

Better close for now. Everyone else(my men & my dogs) are all sound asleep...like I should be.

Net at home (again)

Finally have the internet at home again. Bad thing is, the computer is in our bedroom which means no net time 'til Matthew is asleep.
We found out last Thursday what the baby is....BUT I can't tell in my blog yet because we have not told Wayne's family yet. And we don't want anyone connected to his family(friends, etc) who have this blog site to "leak" the news.
So you'll all have to stay "tuned" to find out what we are having.

Still Here!!

I haven't disappeared. I'm no longer allowed to access the internet while at work except for during my thirty minute lunch.....so needless to say there's a lot to do in that thirty minutes. We are trying to get internet access back at home...soon hopefully.
We had that storm come thru on Tuesday morning. Boy did I feel the effects(physically) Monday late evening & then again Tuesday morning. Now I know why they insist on women farther along in their pregnancies to go to the hospital during hurricanes. I truly felt the pressure....not a pleasant feeling...LOL!!
I'm starting to go thru Matthew's "old"/out grown clothes....& minimize for the new baby(if it's a boy). We have way too much. I want to have a yard sale to get rid of stuff as well as maybe make a little extra cash.
Well I better close for today.

FRIDAY!!

TGIF!!!! I can't wait to go home. My sister & nephews are on there way down right now. I can't wait to see them.
Matthew decided he needed to be up 'til 11:30pm last night. This after the night before sleeping thru daddy coming home late BUT waking up at 1am to find daddy & "party" 'til 2am. Boy am I exhausted!!
Just hungry & tired feeling today!!
Better finish up some work so I can go home for the day!!

LESSON LEARNED

You'd think that once you had been thru something that should've made you "learn a lesson" that you'd remember it for the rest of your life. Maybe it's just me(or maybe a total human nature thing); trying to see the best in everyone. BUT once again, I have "learned" you don't always see or get the best of everyone. This time is different though!!! I truly have LEARNED the lesson.
I'm doing okay. The baby seems to be fine despite some stress I'm under. So I ask for my family & friends prayers for the health & safety of this baby as well as me. I know that too much stress can cause you to go into labor early, thus why I am trying to stay as calm as possible when I can.

Matthew is really walking up a storm now. He's all over the place. He loves to go to the entertainment center & pull out all the controllers to the playstation, etc; as well as all the Disney videos that are in the side cabinet. He gets a kick out of making a mess...lol.

Well it's time to feed this baby...LOL!!! When is it not....LOL!!

Little Tired!!

Already just a little bit tired this morning. It was a kind of exhausting weekend. Weekends are way too short!! I think weekends need to be four days long & the work week only three...LOL!! One can dream can't they?!?!
Matthew did very well at the doctor's on Friday. The doctor was impressed w/him. He'd be asking me a question & before I could get the answer out Matthew was already shaking his head yes or no(answering for himself) & funny thing is/was...his answers were correct. Then after the doctor did his part of the exam..he was still talking to me...BUT Matthew was ready for him to go as well as to leave himself. Matthew would point at the doctor then to the door(telling him it's time for you to leave)...then he'd point to himself & then to the door(saying it was time for himself & mommy to be leaving). This really impressed the doctor. It was the cutest thing ever!!

We took dad out for his bithday(again). He & Hazel were really impressed w/Matthew & how much he's changed just in the last two weeks....walking so much better, etc.

We put Matthew in the nursery at church for the first time. He did really good in the beginning. When I went to pick him up though, he was crying. They said it's because he kept wanting to go out the door & they wouldn't let him. I think it's also because they never gave him a drink or anything plus he was tired(so ready for a nap). I think w/the switching of the Sunday school person to the church people "confused" him as well as I don't think the church time workers even knew which bag was his. They no longer have a "system" like they used to that identified the child, his/her bag, & the parent for pick up. So these people had no clue who he was, etc.
We will put him in again BUT we are going to label his diaper bag(as well as him) so that the people know which bag is his & are able to give him his drink, etc.

I'm feeling pretty good today except for being tired & HUNGRY(as usual..LOL)!!

FRIDAY!!!

TGIF!!! Finally a chance to rest..lol!!(whatever that is...lol). This being said....this means I am a bit tired today. This is not the greatest news at this point of the morning because I still have the whole day left to go. It could be partially due to the fact that there is noone here in the office today except me & the president of the company(& then the 2 people who work in the marking room downstairs). So this leaves me w/noone to talk to...which can be very boring!!
I do get to leave early today BUT only to go get Matthew & go sit at his doctor's office to get his 1 year old shot(s). They are supposed to give him the MMR shot today BUT I am not letting them give it to him as of yet. I'm going to have them wait & give it to him when he is 18 months old. That should be a fun day because not only will I have him having those shots, I'll have the new baby getting "it's" 1 month old shots.
Knock on wood...I'm not my "normal" starving self this morning. That could be because I ate my breakfast a little later than normal(usually as soon as I sit down at my desk). Being that noone is here today, I waited to straighten my hair til I got to work this morning...which pushed my eating schedule off a little bit. I'm sure it'll catch up w/me though(the hunger part)....probably when we are at the doctor's office.
Well I better at least look like I'm doing work...LOL!!

Ticked Off!!!

I feel pretty good so far today, a little tired but not super bad(yet...lol). Hungry as always!!

Ticked off!!! describes how I'm feeling about a comment someone made to one of my posts the other day. The person was rude to me in it & doesn't know what the heck they are talking about!
I'll tell what they said(in a nicer way/tone...than they did). They told me the reason my son was having nightmares is because of sleeping in my bed w/us...& us having sex in the bed w/him there as well as having the dogs in the bed w/us. Then they told me to get off my lazy butt & do the laundry so my son can sleep in his crib & that the reason I let him cosleep w/us is because I am LAZY, LAZY, LAZY!! This person obviously hasn't read all of my blogs & is not someone who knows me....otherwise they'd know that all of what they said is UNTRUE!!!

NOW FOR MY REBUTTAL!!!
-We do not have sex w/our son in the bed!!! That matter is private & is taken care of while he is
in his bed(before he wakes & wants to come to our bed)
-Our dogs do not sleep w/us anymore. They did before Matthew came around. Two of them
sleep in the living room while the third sleeps in our room BUT on the floor.
-There hasn't been laundry in his crib in over like 4 or 5 months(since we have been trying to
get him to sleep in it) & even before that there wasn't always laundry in it!
-I do get off my butt & fold the laundry(almost on a daily basis).
-He cosleeps because that is what he has been used to since he was born.
-As for me being LAZY, LAZY, LAZY!!! I don't think so!! I work a 40 hour work week(w/the
commute like 46/47 hours a week). Then have a one year old I run after all evening; plus
cleaning the house(daily) as well as cooking meals. My day starts at 5:40am & ends somewhere
around 11pm every weekday. On top of all this, I AM 4 & 1/2 months pregnant! So I honestly
don't think anyone can accuse me of being LAZY!! I am far from it!! YES! I am tired BUT that
comes from all I do as well as from being pregnant!

I hope this clears up everything for the "delusional" & "confused" person who sent me the RUDE comment....
Some would say make the blog private so people like this won't make their "uninformed" comments....I would but then it just makes it harder on my friends & family(who do know me) to get to my blog,etc(extra steps). So I'm leaving it open BUT will sound off on "idiotic"/uninformed
comments.
Well better get to my actual work stuff(boss giving me the "evil eye"...lol...j/k)

Swelling??

I'm only in the 16th week of this pregnancy. My fingers are already swelling...so much that I can barely get my rings off. I don't remember this happening this soon with Matthew. I know that say around like month 6 & 1/2 to 7(last time) is when I had to stop wearing my wedding set & my mom's wedding band. I was like the "shallow" person & bought a "cheap" larger size ring, so that people wouldn't think I was an unwed mother...lol.
Wayne actually got off at a decent hour last night. So Matthew & I walked up to the community parking compound to meet him for the walk home from his truck. Plus this gave Matthew playtime w/daddy....something he didn't get last week at all. The downfall to this was Matthew refused to go to bed last night. He felt he needed to stay up & play some more w/daddy. He must sense that he's not going to have much time the rest of the week w/him.
I'm feeling good. I start off really good in the morning, wide awake, etc. BUT then by about mid-morning I start "crashing". I don't get it!! I thought you were supposed to have more energy in your second trimester than the first & third. This is how I was with Matthew; exhausted every day thru the whole thing. I literally took a nap at my desk every day as well as resting/sleeping when I'd get home from work. BUT I can't do that now....I can still try to squeeze in a nap at lunch time at my desk but when I get home I can't just do nothing because I have my lil' man.
Speaking of Matthew....his walking is getting so much better. He still looks a little "drunk" & drops on occassion BUT he's doing so much better.
Well better close for today. The baby wants something else to eat...LOL!!

CONFUSED!!???!!

I'm confused about something. We listen to the radio in the car all the time. It doesn't bother Matthew.....BUT when I turn on the radio at home(radio/cd), he starts crying...sobbing. I don't get it! What could be wrong? Could it be because he's just used to having the t.v. on more? I take him to the doctor on Friday for his 1 yr old shots(skipping the MMR shot til he's 18 months though). I'm going to make sure the doctor checks his ears & ask his opinion on what he thinks could be the problem.
Also; what do "babies/toddlers" dream about? The last two(2) nights Matthew has "woke up" crying. He's crying yet sound asleep still. I've heard it's because he's having a dream(nightmare) & can't wake himself up. BUT what could a child this young dream about that would be so scary?
I just don't get it!!
Typical day for me....starving(as usual)....& a little tired(but not as bad as "normal"...so far).

More of his 1 yr old photos

Wait!!! I'm getting ready to come for you mommy!!
Look out!!! Coming for the camera!!
VERY GRUMPY!!!(1st pic taken)
Me & my "ride"
Not sure what I want to do..stay or go to mommy!

Matthew 1 yr old photos

Matthew's 1 yr old "photo shoot"

What an angelic face!!

Finally one he stood for.
Such a serios face!!
Matthew w/Tigger

I'll send out more of his shoot in a moment. It'd only let me download so many at a time.

MATTHEW IS SO CUTE!!

Matthew had a Mickey Mouse 1st birthday party! Here he is wearing his Mickey ears.

AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!!!

Why do some people feel like they always have to be negative? This irritates me so much. There's this one person who always makes me feel like an inferior mother. What really gets me is this person doesn't have kids! BUT whenever we discuss things going on w/Matthew...she always makes me feel like a horrible mother or like I'm not doing a good job. I know I shouldn't let it get to me BUT when you hear it on almost a daily basis it tends to where down your defenses, etc. Her latest(again) is on Matthew still cosleeping w/us for part of the night. ARGH!!

No offense to anyone BUT please for those of you who have an opinion on cosleeping....PLEASE keep it to yourself! We know that it's not always the best thing for the child(or the parents) BUT it does work for us(as well as others we've talked to).
We do appreciate all advice that's given to us but not when you "belittle" what we are doing as well.

I was asked by my aunt if we knew what we are having yet & if we'd already picked the name.
No, we don't know yet. I have my next ultrasound in two(2) weeks & that's when I am 18 weeks along. There's a chance she can tell us then BUT it can also be a "false" reading. If told it's a boy at that point...pretty much guaranteed it's a boy. If told it's a girl at that point....it could be true or it could be a false reading. Boy "parts" don't always fully "drop"(develop) until week 20....so you can be given a false reading before then(I have friends who have gone thru this experience).
As for names.....girl= Savanna Jo(definite/set in stone); boy= Luke Austin(possible/not set in stone though).

TIRED!!!

It seems it's going to be one of those days. I'm very tired this morning. I slept pretty good last night & was actually still sleeping(when my internal clock normally wakes me up) BUT this time Matthew woke me up. He was crying yet still asleep. He could only be comforted by me sitting up in the bed rocking him. For those of you who don't know....Matthew is a cosleeper. We have been trying for the last month to break him of it....BUT it's hard. Honestly he did better the first week of being in his own bed than he has in the last two. We also have an extra playyard in our room that we use to put him in during the middle of the night(if he "hogs" to much of the bed). I am hoping that we can eventually get him "broke" of cosleeping....preferably before this baby is born....lol. We haven't minded cosleeping with him....it works for us....BUT as he gets bigger he spreads out more.....leaving mommy & daddy both hanging on the edge of the bed...LOL!!
As of now, it has been decided that the new baby will not be a cosleeper....though I have already said that for the first two weeks(or so) the baby will sleep in our room in the bassinet. The reason for this is to make it easier on me(mommy) to handle any nighttime feedings. It'll be much easier to reach over pick baby up & let baby "latch" on. Some would question why not just get up & go to baby's room....the reasoning is I will be healing from having had a c-section & it's just easier on me(in the long run). I just have to remember not to do the laying down position w/baby because that's what led to Matthew being a cosleeper. BUT in my defense...it was better & less scarier for me to do the laying down position because in the beginning w/Matthew, I used to just sit up in the bed....well Wayne would wake up a little later & find Matthew "detached" & both of us sound asleep. It made Wayne(& myself) very nervous that I would drop him so I learned how to do the laying down position. BUT please don't judge us for cosleeping. It is what worked for us(& many others we have talked to about it).
Matthew is still a little "drunk" man in his walking BUT he is getting better. Last Friday I was laying down on his floor(while he was playing)...I guess I must've closed my eyes because next thing I know...I heard him "running" towards me. I opened my eyes just in time to "catch" him as he dove for me. He is so cute!! He loves to kiss his baby brother/sister. We'll say, "where's your baby brother/sister?" And he'll lift my shirt & point at my belly. Then he'll lean over & kiss my belly. SO CUTE!!!
Better close for today....have work to do...lol!!

New blog

This is a new blog site for me. I will be journaling about my journeys through the pregnancy that I am going through as well as other stuff dealing w/our daily lives. For those of you who haven't read my other entries from the other site, here's the link to it.
www.thoughts.com/tinkerbear
This will bring you up to date with where I am at so far in the pregnancy & some of the other stuff we've been thru w/Matthew, etc.

So far today I am feeling pretty good. I'm just tired & hungry as I always am....lol

I still can't believe Matthew is one now. He's so cute!!! He is growing so big. He almost has walking down....still looks like a little drunk man BUT now goes further each time. He'll have it down soon.

Well I better get off here for now. Just pray for us as we go thru all the stages of pregnancy again.